Every now and then I allow myself to be dramatic. Right now? It's necessary. Too much at once and what's a little disappointment. Just a moment of weakness....

It Would Be Me

So at the time that you wanted to be with yourself,
It was me that was understanding and committed to your health.
Never wondering why or how can be listed as attributes to my strengths,
but somehow you managed to switch and up the stakes.
I never really doubted all you said but your actions shed the light on my mistake and now I'd say...

It would be me dealing with the walls you've instilled,
crushing all that stood near or tried pull through
and I'm ashamed that I'd let you do this but most of all,
It would be me that would suffer as you drive on.

Affected you, Pushing Me

So don't expect me to just go on with this situation,
never feeling what my end has endured just to feel you out.
Thinking I can walk aside you and listen to your thoughts,
forgetting it's me you are talking to.

And yes, you are correct
to think your answer couldn't be more direct.
I feel like I've joined a losing battle, and it's not even mine...

Affected you, pushing me
what's left of you is all I see and I'm weakened by your means to recovery
It's affecting me more than you can see, how long should it have to be?
For you to see...what's affecting you is pushing me

Is it that hard for your eyes to be fixed forward,
it's not like it was hard you for you to kill.
Why'd you let me in, thinking that I can win, to just see myself become what I hate most!!!

Affected you, pushing me
what's left of you is all I see and I'm just dying to hear you say,
It's affecting me and it's pushing you. Don't walk away, I'm here for you